Friday, May 17, 2013

Sowing Seeds

It's been a while since I posted on my blog,
but with good reason. Life has been undergoing
a change this spring.  I've been working hard
to get my life back into balance.

Instead of the natural fluidity that used to be most days,
things have felt forced, driven, and sometimes impossible.
It came time to really take a look at my priorities.

Working at the health food store as a wellness counselor
for over a decade has taught me more than I could ever imagine.
The friendships I have made there are most dear.  There is a
constant exchange of knowledge, opinions, thoughtfulness, and laughter.
Not to mention the access to things I need for my family, and myself to better our health.
Receiving answers to my own prayers, and at times having the opportunity to facilitate answers for others, makes it all feel like sacred ground.
I have to say this has been one of the most challenging decisions I've ever had to make, but I've decided to leave my employment.  Though it's been emotional and taxing, I am looking forward to what lies ahead!

There are promises I have made that I intend to keep---some on a deeply spiritual level.  
One thing that I can share is that I've felt inspired to grow a garden this year.  As we have been working in the yard together, we can all feel the change taking place.  Aiden took a deep breath and sighed a most happy and contented sigh as he said to me, "Mom, I think we're going to have a new life!"  I haven't told him or Liam much of what is going on, but our ties will be strengthened by this choice, and they can already sense it.

As we plant these little seedlings, I feel like I'm planting hope, and faith, and trust.  One of my favorite yoga instructors always ends her class with the words, "Let the earth support you."  She is implying that we need to detach from so much need to support ourselves. This is not to say we can just be lazy, but life slows down and feels less frantic when we simplify our needs, and trust that we will be supported.  So, here is my new sacred ground.